Busy days...

I am suppose to prepare for one mid-term examination due coming Monday. I am suppose to prepare all the sponsorship proposal for a national event happening in July. I am suppose to ...

The list never ends. I suddenly remember a friend used to say "You quit all your commitment?! That will never happen."

Looking back. Maybe my friend is correct. I will never know why I repeat my mistakes but I will always keep myself busy... sometimes too busy for my own good.

One part of me thinks that I still have a lot of juice .. that I can take up extra commitment .. that I am just lazy and not totally productive. Another part of me thinks that I have too much for me to swallow. I guess I will never know which is true.

How do you know your limit?

some lines that always runs in my mind...

"You either die a hero, or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain." I can do those things because I'm not a hero, not like Dent. I killed those people. That's what I can be.

No, no! You can't, you're not!

I'm whatever Gotham needs me to be. Call it in.

They'll hunt you.

You'll hunt me. You'll condemn me, set the dogs on me. Because that's what needs to happen. Because sometimes... the truth isn't good enough. Sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

Batman? Batman! Why is he running, Dad?

Because we have to chase him.

He didn't do anything wrong.

Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So, we'll hunt him, because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian. A watchful protector. A Dark Knight.

HELP-less ...

They say those around will always be a better judge for your character than yourself. Perhaps they are right. Perhaps not.

I wonder how ppl see me. I could never really describe myself in words. I never did totally understand myself. Most days when I describe myself, those words would only be a sketch of me in a moment of time.

I like to help ppl but I never thought of myself as self-less. There are times deep down I am waiting for a "thank you" or some sort of appreciation. Who am I?

I used to say lame joke all the time but that is not me. Friends who know me well would realize that I can be rather serious at times. Who am I?

I help others but in fact I am the one in need.

I always think that I am helpless if not hopeless. I did not totally quit ****ing. I could not bring myself to do it. I am over a quarter century old. Peers are getting married, child bearing, graduating with post grad degrees etc. Here I am.

I need time alone. Lots of time alone but yet I love company. I wish for company but yet more than often I never take the initiative to keep in touch with my friends. Losing touch. Why am I doing this?

I have always wanted group that will stick with me till end of days but I have always been elusive. "see how la..." "long story" "..." some of my most frequent phrases.

I always wanted some sense of achievement... that I can be recognized by society's standards. I am fully aware of the effort required of me but I lack the consistency, patience and drive. Where do I stand?

I want to come across as a pleasant person yet I can never stop myself from being critical of others (sometimes). I need more "goodness". I need a longer fuse too.

I can be optimistic at times. I might be objective in certain moments. Yet, there are moments when I am in self denial. "having unique character" "standing out from the slaves of societal perspectives" some of the many excuses. wait... maybe they are not excuses. still... I never really did get myself to break free from social practices. I still seek for social acceptance.

*bleah bleah* (random blabber continues)

So many things about me that I am unsure. I continue writing forever. When I re-read this post I might think that certain sentences does not reflect my identify. One things is certain though. I am past oriented.

I finally found the first phrase that describes me. past oriented.




Do you have words or phrases that will accurately define you? be very honest to yourself. I have always admired people who can really say who they are, what they like etc.

It's been five years huh... wonder if you still remember this. =\

rest well...

take care where ever you are going ...

I was not there for the wedding...

I have only known you as her housemate for most part of my life...

A brother I longed to get along with ...

I respect and salute you ...

You will be missed. take care and enjoy where you are heading. know that you will be missed.

最美麗的第七天

can't get this song out of my mind now... hmm...